My inner Eeyore from Winnie the Pooh, seems to be louder these days than Tigger, who shows up if I’ve had too much coffee, or Pooh, who I like being because he’s content with a simple life. But it’s Eeyore today, and while I don’t want him hanging around too long, I do want to acknowledge him because he is part of the family.
Recently, however, I think I’ve found a way to get my inner Eeyore to be a little quieter: Take action. I’ve been following the adage, “Move a muscle, change a thought,” and when I do I start to make changes.
However, I say I’d like to change, but then change shows up, I often say “Hey, not THAT change!”
Spring always seems to ask a lot of me. It’s as if I am breaking through the cold hard soil against my will. It’s been really gloomy here in Chicago. (Eeyore again). Taxes? Ugh. But still, something seems to be pulling me forward. It’s a little like the feeling of wanting to buy new pens, pencils and notebooks in September. Spring makes me feel mixed feelings of excitement (which can often feel like fear), hope, and anticipation of better things to come. And learning — I love learning.
Both Spring and Fall ask a few things of me though: to be open to change and GROWTH. Most times I don’t want to grow. I love my winter cave. I made it really nice! Besides, it’s still cold and kinda’ dark out there. But, can I learn without growing and vice versa?
So, I made my last stew a few days ago, I’m locating some bank statements, and I’m getting to work rehearsing for the four shows I have this month. I’m moving forward while still staying grateful for the cave, and for having a cave to come out of, and for the fact that I saw two robins the other day. They’re out of the nest and catching worms through the snow! I can do this — c’mon Spring!